though i think im rotting inside, and feeling like shit, i think that its part of it. yeah , i do love her. but i was told shes messes up. what do i do? nothing really. just keep on lov ing her as i would normally do. secretly, silently. , until i stop dreaming. she knows. and i know. both of us are not idiots. in fact we are more alike than anyone would care to realize. -