confession #3 I see myself dying withthag t tube stuff ck ck in my throat im in icu seeing myself struggling to breathe i want to just pull that tube and let her die, ha what's hope? whete r r r do i get obe ne or find ohr e the one person you gave up everything to do t n even acknowledge what you did, instwad e e abandoned you and went of to i with someone else karma is a cubt n, i deserve it --- ,,,, ...