When I was 19 I married my childhood sweetheart, who is a pure-blooded Frenchman. It took only 4 years for me to re -alise that I hated being married -ed to him; and I HATED living in France. I fell into the big -gest state of depression and rarely left our house. He alway -s said he didn't want children so I never had that 3rd or 4th person who could have anchored